Lalalala~

theeheeheeheee

2010-05-26T04:00:00.002+08:00

hellooo!!

it has been so long since i last write here. sorry! hahaha

so, here is a quick update about, urmm everything?heh

first, i've finished my FINAL EXAM!! woohooo!! (dah sebulan pon abes.hahaha). finished on 29th April and the results were announced the next day. haha gila scary. sakit jantung exam pon tak abes lagi. nut Alhamdullilah, i passed! walaupon study tak seberapa jek.hahaha. but sadly, 5 of us did not make it. it's ok guys, in only few months time, u'll be joining us! so don't give up ok?

so then, we have to go through this something called 'shadow horsemanship'. basically it's like an introduction of things u have to do once u start working, what to expect, how to write the reports, yada yada yada. borrriinnggg! i mean, wtf? not like u don't have an orientation week before u start working, and u have tagging too! sengaja tanak kasik orang cuti =(

plus, all the specialist kat selayang ni macam not supportive of that thing. they were laughing when we introduced ourselves to them. huhuhu.

and my convocation day was last week. it went smoothly, Alhamdullilah. wore the jubah, hood and the board. and of course heels. sikit lagi nak terjatuh peluk pro canselor.hahaha. The Mr came! that made me verryyy happy! but it was raining, so less pictures were taken. saddd!

surat SPA dah sampai, meaning that i'll start working soon. induksi maybe mid june. urghh nak cuti lama sikit pon tak bleh.

anndddd, i'll be going to kursus kahwin next week! jeng3...hahahahahaha

erks. nak exam jangan buat hal ok.

2010-04-11T16:45:00.002+08:00

some people have the perfect happy family, some have the beauty, some have the wealth, and some have the brains. some are blessed with eternal love, some with friendships. u can rarely have them all. so shut the fuck off and start being thankful for things that u have. stop being pain in the ass, my ass that is.

if u think your life is crappy just because of a guy, than i am really sorry, but u are a moron.

Catch Me

2010-04-07T21:08:00.001+08:00

Before I fall too fast
Kiss me quick
But make it last
So i can see how badly this will hurt me
When you say good bye

Keep it sweet
Keep it slow
Let the future pass
And don't let go
But tonight i could fall to soon under this beautiful moonlight

But you're so hypnotizing
You got me laughing while i sing
You got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
And your love is where im falling
But please don't catch me

See this heart
Wont settle down
Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you'll do
my stomach screams just when I look at you

Run far away
So I can breathe
Even though you're far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes to high
Cuz every hello ends with a goodbye

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where im falling
But please don't catch me

So now you see
Why I'm scared
I cant open up my heart without a care
But here i go
Its what i feel
and for the first time in my life i know its real

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've get me smiling in my sleep
And i can see this unraveling
And your love is where im falling
So please don't catch me

And if this is love
Please don't break me
I'm giving up
So just catch me

2010-04-07T00:22:00.004+08:00

helloooo
it has been a long time, no?haha
kunun tak update sebab study, tapi tipu semata2.

anyways, exam in 2 weeks time.
after that, insyaAllah, we'll be doctors.haha gila gerun. macam tak sesuai gitu.

our convocation is on 22nd may 2010. gila, exam blom start lagi, dah ada tarikh konvo. nampak sangat nak kene keje cepat. huhu.

ok la, saya nak study.hahaha

wtf?

2010-02-26T05:32:00.002+08:00

49kg and dropping.

kena minum weight gain balik

hulla!

2010-02-24T22:41:00.006+08:00

I miss her!

It took me nearly 10 freaking times to log into my blogger account. hahahaha i've forgotten the stupid password. ngehhh.

Anyways, the weather has been PMS-ing a lot lately. PANAS GILA.

I am still trying to start my revisions. Too many activities going on. Hari sukan la, hape la (alasan, ngaku jek la ko tu pemalas!)

I need to go to kys anytime soon. Will be having my interviews with the spa sometime in March. Need to collect my SPM and PMR cert. haha yes, dah 10 tahun ko amik PMR, baru nak gi amik. hampeh!

ok lah, ni memang post picisan pon, sebab berjaya log in, haruslah kena post satu benda, walaupon hampeh.hahahaha. bye!

hmmm

2010-02-04T01:44:00.001+08:00

I am sad.

Esok ponteng kelas.

omg omg omg omg hyperventilates!

2010-02-03T00:15:00.003+08:00

just realized this.

exam is just in freaking 70 days! help help help help!!!!!!!!
i just barely start reading my books. now i'm doing psychiatry, so really there's no pushing factor to study. i'm so so so freaking out now.

ok, stop acting and screaming like a 17 year old hidayah. u can do this. lets keep it together and start your reading okayyyy????

i shall start with anatomy. cry weh, i hate that subject since we first met.haha

on the other hand, i did some counting. apparently, WE ARE 41!!! wohooo!

well, it's supposed to be 45, but The Mr said the first few months dont count.haha dunno why.ok, i lied, i know exactly why, but i'm not telling.haha

esok nak gi sg buloh. kena tido awal.

moving on.

2010-01-16T01:43:00.003+08:00

since our relationship has the same age (and the same condition) with my laptop, yes my old crappy, noisy, outdated, close of being useless laptop, should i throw it away? and it there being the relationship. i still love my lappy. thats a major difference.

did u think that i will swallow everything this time just like how it has always be?

not this time. i've had enough of your childishness and selfishness. u never made me feel like i'm special. well, may be i am not to you.

for almost 4 years, it has always been my fault and u are always the perfect one.

u can do what ever u like now. i wont stop u for i don't care about u anymore. u may as well fail your final exam (because i am so tired of reminding u to study). u are on your own.

i know i've said this so many times before. but maybe this time i wont turn back.

maybe u are just not the one i am looking for. or maybe i'm not the one for u. maybe we are just pretending.

that being said, even though i am scared, makes me feel a bit better.

so what now?

What Is My Ninja Name??

2010-01-15T22:32:00.003+08:00

A- ka
B- zu
C- mi
D- te
E- ku
F- lu
G- ji
H- ri
I- ki
J- zu
K- me
L- ta
M- rin
N- to
O- mo
P- no
Q- ke
R- shi
S- ari
T- chi
U- do
V- ru
W- mei
X- na
Y- fu
Z- zi

so it would be, err..

TODOSHIDOTA RIKITEKAFUKARI!!

dah, dota kari hape pulak ni....

ok, nak blaja. bye!

owh, i am reading thalassemia while writing this!

2010-01-12T01:57:00.003+08:00

I am getting sick of my lecturers telling me that I'm going to be a doctor in just a few months time. It's tiring. During the first year, they kept telling us in just five years time, you all will become doctors. Then came the second year, they kept talking about how we were going to meet the patients and experience some "hospital" life in a year time. Then, for the next 3 years, they've become my unofficial countdown timer for my housemanship.

What are the people from Myanmar called eh? Myanmarnese? That sounds so wrong. hahaha. I know they were called Burmese. But is it the same? Must Google this later.

I think my social life is deteriorating (wah, macam patient pulak bunyik nye)

I miss Sara. Balik rumah la weekend ni.hehe

wtf

2010-01-11T04:00:00.000+08:00

You are so NOT WORTH to be mad at. You are just a waste of time. And yes, you've made it to my list of people who I will ignore forever. Talk like you are some kind of genius. But the fact that YOU ARE STUPID remains.

You can stand there and watch me being happy while you have to go through you crappy pathetic life, ALONE.

Fuck off. Babi.

All this mencarut really is making me hungry. haih.

Why am I writing about some useless people in my blog?! pfft.

cis

2010-01-10T01:26:00.003+08:00

While we were walking after dinner

Him: sayang, sekejap2. (lari2, duduk kat kerusi ngan meja)

Him: Ok2, now jalan depan meja ni

Me: ???? (wtf?)

Him: Cepat la

Me: Ok2 (walked passed him)

Him: (While pretending to write something down) ye puan, datang follow up ye, BERAPA BULAN DAH?

Me: babi!

hahaha his way of telling me "sayang, u dah buncit. tolong jangan makan banyak2 sangat ok. u tau kan i suka orang kurus, bukan gaya buncit macam doremon?? bontot pon dah lebar.Semalam i tengok u minum iced choc with whipped cream pastu u makan pulak MY brownies then ice cream tu, tu pon lepas u habes tedas lasagna.."

ok, fine! saya diet pasni. puas hati?????

owh!

2010-01-09T02:01:00.003+08:00

Sat for my PPD examination earlier today. How am I supposed to know what fee-splitting is, or is genetically modifying your child's genes allowed???Trying to be a doctor first here, all other issues can wait, can't they?? It's not the houseman's job to tackle these issues anyways.

Which one is worse, being together with someone because of his/her parent's status/wealth, or being in love with the idea of what he/she is becoming, for example, you want to be with him/her just because in few months/years time, he/she is going to be a doctor, or someone who will make a lot of money.hahaha that's something to ponder about.

Anyways, there is less than 100 days to my PRO 3 exam, and I have not read a single shit. Maybe I'll start tomorrow with biochemistry and physiology of hemopoiesis (did I get the spelling right?hahaha).

gtg, the VC is coming tomorrow. Need to tidy up my kucing-beranak room.

This is not how it is supposed to be.

2010-01-08T01:38:00.002+08:00

Of relationship:

Stop comparing your relationship with mine. Every relationship has its own story. Yours is definitely yours, and mine is mine. Stop listening to what others say about him/her, then maybe you can finally see how beautiful your partner really is.

Yes, I do that sometimes. Thinking and wondering how lucky that girl is to have that boyfriend and how I wish mine would be just like him. But then, what you see is just superficial, what they want you to see, what they hope you see them as. The real thing is well hidden, kept as a secret because every girl wishes that she has the perfect boyfriend, the one that she can flaunt off to everyone else, the one that can trigger the jealousy of other girls, even if the truth is that she is just as miserable as anyone else.

Of my life:

You think that I am so lucky and so happy with my life, that u actually want to be me just for a day. You are so wrong. Life is not always what it seems. It is full of surprises, and in my case, it is full of downs. What is important is how you appreciate each thing, even how sucky it can be, and turn it into the most beautiful thing that it can be. I don't have a perfect family, yes, it's broken, and I accept it with all my heart, not blaming it to anyone. I don't have the money or the looks, heck, I don't even have close friends, because I feel so inferior to them, I kept my distance.

I am a girl with issues. Do you still want to be me? Do you still want to be with me? Do you still want to be my friend? Or will you take your steps away from me?

2009-12-25T13:23:00.002+08:00

i hate it when plans made got cancelled. sebab tu saya tak suka buat plans.

The Mr's birthday is next week. I forgot to go tempah the cake. haha so another secret recipe jek la jawabnyer. Already gave him his pressie tho, sebab dia tak sabar, nak gak hadiah awal awal

(-___-")

i wanna watch avatar and the chipmunks. tapi knowing him, i know i'll never get to watch those.

owh, and kys got 100% straight A's for the 3rd consecutive years. congrats to the lil brothers and sisters. i know exactly how hell-ish your life were few months before the exam (sebab kena brainwash setiap hari.hahaha) but it's all worth it kan? habisla junior next year pressure kena maintain.hahaha

PRO 3 is just few months away. I'm thinking to start studying for real. wish me luck!

......

2009-12-18T06:28:00.002+08:00

Ignorance is a bliss. No?

hehehehe

2009-12-13T02:18:00.002+08:00

I think my sleep cycle is fucked up again. Thanks to this online game I've been playing everyday from midnite to 8 am in the morning.
So tonite, due to major boredom, I'll finally do this tag. yang lain lain tu hutang lagi la yek. hahaha

Answer every question fast - put down your first impulse.

What is his name?
- Mohamad Izzi Bin Zahari

How old is he?
-Approximately 22 years and 11 months 2 weeks old.hahahaha

How long have you been goin out?
-since, err, early 2006. You do the math ok?

Do you love him?
-Jeng jeng jeng... haha I love you honey

Who said i love you first?
-Dia! Dia cakap dulu!! *muka bangga* hahahaha

How long do you plan on being with him?
-Forever. Awww schweet tak??kihkihkih

Would you steal or lie for him?
-Hish, dosa ok. So even though I love u very much honey, but u have to do the stealing and lying yourself ok?hehe

Would you stand up for him?
-Yesh! kadang kadang la tapi. haha

Would you protect him even if he was at fault?
- I'll let him know that it was his fault. But try to help him anyways.

If some one touched him in the wrong way what would you do?
- I'll just enjoy the free movie. Boleh jadik point for whole year ok!hahaha sorry b.

Do you trust him?
- Yup. Trust is important. But I still check his phone.hahahaha lets say it is only 88% trust ok?

Whats your favorite thing about him?
-The way he makes me smile and forget all my problems. chewahhh! hahahaha

Whats his favorite music?
-owh, dia suke pompuan seksi nyanyi. dengan techno sikit sikit. nasyid dia tak layan okeyh!

Whats his favorite food?
-Nasik! and anything beras-based, like, kuey teow (betol ke ejaan?haha). and rojak. (gila melayu boyfrend aku.hahahahaha)

Would you stop doing something for him?
- I'll try to cut down my activities that drive him mad. like, errr, going out with other guys,hehe

Are you a jealous person?
-Yes. tapi ego tinggi so selalu buat macam tak jeles tapi dalam hati tengah caci maki. balik rumah bukak fb stalk pompuan yang dia cakap tadi.hahahaha

Is he a jealous person?
-Owh yeah. hahaha

How often do you think of him?
-every minute of the day.hahaha gila jiwang.

Have you sang for him?
-Err rasanya tak. sebab selayang belom banjir lagi.hehe

Would you let some one or something keep you from seeing him?
-No la..sape nak halang ponnn. cam hindustan la soalan kau ni.

Does he call you every day?
-Even though we see each other everyday, he calls me at least twice a day. First thing in the morning and last thing before going to bed. Unless we are fighting.hahaha

Do you smoke?
-Used to. Stopped oredi (okay, kantoi besar-besaran kat sini. sila senyap senyap ok?hahaha)

Does he smoke?
-Hahaha lelaki melayu ni mana hisap rokok.

Name one thing you would change about him?
-Stop playing DOTA and study more PLEASEEE!

Name one thing you would change about yourself for him?
-I've stopped piercing my ears for him okay? sila kata saya baik!hehe

Rate him..1-10
- 9. hehehehe sorry b, nak dapat full mark, u know what u have to do.hehe

Has he changed you?
-Yup.

When was the last time you saw him?
-Tadi. 3 jam yang lalu.hehehe

Have you ever kissed?
-Jeng jeng jeng jeng... hahahahahaha.

Does he go to ur school or work with you?
- Iya dongg.

Would you love him no matter what?
-People have their limits right? so am I.

What would make you break up with them?
-HAHAHAHAHA. tanak cakap!

Have you seen him cry?
-Live tak penah. kat fon penah.hahahahah

Has he bitten you?
- Nope. kau ingat dia ni berlakon twilight ke?

Does he hate you?
-HIsh manede. dia sayang aku okkk! (konfiden gila.hahaha)

Does he pop pills?
-Dulu ubat jerawat.hahahahaha hensem gila.

Does he trust you?
-percaya!

Does he let you touch him?
-Touch macam mana? jeng3...haha

Is he suicidal?
-Nope. dia tak mereng.

Is he dedicated to you?
-errr tatau. iye kot.. B, sila jawab.

Is he pretty?
-Pretty boy! Ok, ring tone fon dia lagu M2M pretty boy tu ok.

Is he cute?
-Yup, with his silly faces. penyelamat besar beliau.

Is he funny?
-Yup, boleh ganti Abon berlakon.hehehe

Is he unique?
-Color blind unik takkk?hahahahaha

Some one you would be with for a long time?
-Yup

How long have you known him?
-since 2005

Why did you choose him?
-sebab dia color blind.hahahaha no lah. sebab dia kaya. hahahahahahaha

Does he love you?
- Do you love me Izzi Zahari? (kalau tak reply, siap la,merajuk 4 tahun)

What would be the perfect date with him?
- errr errr errrrrr. tatau. saya geli la romantik romantik ni. so simple one macam ok kot. tatau.hehe

Have you met his parents?
-Yes. And i think diorang pon dah menyampah tengok muka aku, selalu sangat.hahahaha

Has he met your parents?
-Yup. mak saya suka dia ok! gila dapat lawyer besar. kalau gaduh pon mak pujuk saya suro mintak maaf. pffft

Do you plan to if not?
-Tak.hahaha

Does your closest friends like him?
-Dia ni macam semua orang pon suka. kot.hehehe

Height?
-Same with me. haha so no heels for me.

Eye Color?
-nanti saya tanye dia.hehehe

Hair Color?
-Black. tapi sekarang tengah pujuk suro gi tukar jadik brown. hehehehe

oopsie

2009-12-09T07:43:00.002+08:00

sorry about the cyber death, or specifically, this blog. haha. at first there was this o&g exam (die die dieeee) and then other things. so been busy like a bee. i'm typing this at 7.30 in the morning, proving that i woke up early because there are soooo many things to do.

well, will come up with a decent post later. i mean soon. okay, real soon. before next year, i promise.hehehehe

owh, hari ni exam The Mr! Good luck honey. pas exam bleh berjimba okeyhhh?

of fahrin and kyser

2009-11-13T23:40:00.002+08:00

i stumbled upon fahrin ahmad's page and there are photos of him wearing KYSER rugby shirt.

also photos of him with my fellow kysers. now i wonder, did he study kat kys? (which is obviously tak.hahaha)

and HE IS PLAYING RUGBY FOR KYSER TEAM. saya suka orang main rugby.hehehehehe
serious musykil. mungkin saya dah ketinggalan zaman kot, tatau dia join kyser.hahahaha

and his profile pic in the fb adalah gamba dia pakai jersy kyser. hahaha gila bangga.

ok, nak tgk gg. BYE!

randomness

2009-11-12T02:59:00.003+08:00

it's 3 am. and i'm still up! i think my biological clock is all f*cked up. seriously, i'll sleep from 6 pm till 1 am everyday, then cannot sleep anymore. haiyaaa...

classes are okay. i've not been in the OT yet. malasss!!

i think i should start taking weight gain again. been losing weight like crazy.

i need to brushed up my showing-your-empathy skills. i've like 3 patients cried in front of me these last few weeks. biasa la, mak mengandung memang emosi. one was because she was afraid that her baby might die, tapi dia placenta previa jek. another because she had this CMV infection so she was scared that her baby might be deaf (which is unlikely btw, the risk is less than 1% if i'm not mistaken la) and the last one was because she had a live-saving hysterctomy due to pph (placenta accreta tak silap, because she has 1 previous scar). tapi tu la, standing there and not knowing what to say is a really hard slap on my face. mungkin sebab kurang ilmu, so tatau the facts and all, so tatau camner nak counter balik. tapi tu la, payah la nak tenangkan orang ni.

i think i'll apply hospital kuala pilah as my first choice. just for fun.hehe

love?

2009-11-11T02:01:00.003+08:00

He knows me. Everything about me. The good, the bad and the ugly. And he is still sitting here by my side.

He is a genuinely good man with flaws and faults that I am clearly aware off. And I am still by his side.

Now, can we focus on the happy times, please?

results

2009-11-10T17:58:00.002+08:00

I got my results yesterday. Yes, like after 3 weeks baru dapat.

I think that the results are okay, considering the fact that i did not finish studying for the exam.hahaha

I got A for medicine and a B for surgery, which was very very unpredictable. I tot i've gagal surgery the moment I answered hemorrhoid for something that was clearly a rectal prolapse, and failed to write anything down for the management and investigations of cystic hygroma. but then, Alhamdulillah =)

and yeah, The Mr's grade has been upgraded. so he passed his pediatric posting with erks, 49.6% marks?hehe but then he passed. that matters the most. owh, and he passed his psychiatry posting as well.

rotation o&g ni rasa macam nak try dapat A la. tapi malas. amacam?hahahaha

takut

2009-11-09T11:22:00.002+08:00

haha tetiba rasa macam ada kesedaran diri. terima kasih la yek dr.ghandi! cheeiiit!

Mak Kata....

2009-11-09T00:46:00.001+08:00

jangan mencarut banyak sangat, nanti takde laki nak kat ko.

heh sebenarnye mak kata kalau mencarut banyak sangat, nanti baca buku tak boleh ingat.

quick one

2009-11-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

of all topics, why oh why did i start my studying with STD??? God! it's so disgusting. plus all the real photos taken by the lecturers. eeuuwww!!! i'm not sure why people will go bertenet sampai macam tu. haihhhh! wanna see the pictures? takyah la, sangat yuck2! hehe

and i've seen STD cases too! in the wards. and when i did my infectious disease posting back then. we basically spent all of our time with HIV/AIDS patients everyday. but i still have the stigma. tu la, orang kampong kan, nak wat camner. blaja tinggi2 pon still percaya yang bukan2.hahaha

so tomorrow would be GDM, PIH and PV bleeding day! wish me luck!

The Mr dah start study gak! sila kagum.hehehe

urghhhh!

2009-10-31T17:06:00.003+08:00

well, it's november oredi. ok, not yet, esok baru november.
i've promised to start my revisions in November. 1st November to be exact. after 5 years of medical school, the exam feels more like SPM than a Professional exam.hahaha. even though SPM was tougher, but i did have enough time to read everything, well, not everything. i must say that i was only, errr, 60% ready when i sat for my SPM 6 years ago.hehe. but now, i'm not even 10% ready.why is that? maybe i sleep to much nowadays.

ok, lets see. what are the subjects (ni untuk tambah saiko kan diri sendiri.hahaha)

in year one, we have anatomy, physiology (owh, favorite!!!) and biochemistry,each for general module, cardiovascular module, central nervous system module, gastrointestinal, musculoskeletal, reproductive, respiratory, urinary hemopoietic and lymphatic, endocrine and metabolism and nutrition modules. don't ask me how i survived year one. looking back, i'm not sure how i passed everything.hahahah

year two we have more or less the same as year one. the modules are the same ones, except there are additional modules like communicable diseases, behavioral science and molecular medicine. but the subjects are different. they are pathology (euww euwww least favorite!!), pharmacology, microbiology and pharmacology.

then we come to clinical years. what we have are O&G, medicine, surgery, pediatrics, orthopedics, emergency, ENT, ophthalmology, psychiatry and other picisan rotations like public health, rural and urban health, primary care. so overall, i have like tonnes to read!!! and so little time to do so!

so i was thinking, what would be the best way to read all these topics. should i go one by one or just read what i feel like reading. or should i read macam SPM dulu (tutup buku, then baca Bismillah, then whatever page i opened, tu la yang dibaca. applied for sejarah and agama and bio only ok.hahaha). but i've decided to read everything, one by one. starting with O&G which will include year 1's and year 2's reproductive modules. so wish me luck!!!

mungkin ni salah sendiri. banyak sanagt bergumbira. seriously, i can go like 5 weeks straight tak blaja ok!!!

untuk lebih saiko, saya ada 24 weekends jek untuk habes baca semua ni. 24 sundays!!!!gilaaa!!!!!

tenggg tenngggg

2009-10-28T21:17:00.004+08:00

ok, hari ni macam takde pape jadik. kelas pon macam tak best. penat jek lebih. so tido jek.

esok tak pegi kelas sebab ada appointment ENT.

petang tadi ofis uitm call. tapi sebab tengah tido, saya tak jawab. urgh, kenapa ya? berdebar debar saya. fail exam ke? ada attendance tak cukup je? ape ni ape ni?? uuuuuuu........

setelah puluh2 kali tgk mak mak beranak, saya still tatau saya nak beranak ke tak.HAHAHAHAHA abesla...

owh, kami dah ada future plan. nak tau? lalalalala nanti la yek.hihihihi

i was browsing the net the other day, and stumble upon this:

hahahahahaha so true!

ok, dah pukul 9.30. kena study. saya kan final year student.hahahaha

wow!

2009-10-27T01:40:00.006+08:00

~~eclampsia~~
~~pph~~
~~abruptio placenta~~
~~cord prolapse~~
~~uterine inversion~~
~~breech delivery~~
~~twins delivery~~
~~shoulder dystonia~~
~~external cephalic version~~
gdm
pih
hepatitis and pregnancy

after months of leaving the books behind and 2 years since i last read about obstetrics. quite impressive kannnn??????hahaha

2009-10-26T01:44:00.003+08:00

minumlah 100 plus!hehehe

We went to watch moto gp last sunday. for the first time, my skin was not 2 or 3 tones darker like what happened before. haha all thanks to the rain.

reached there at around 2 pm. the roads were congested! it took us almost an hour to get to the parking lot from the entrance. percaya tak? last year was macam kosong kot. moto gp jek. it wasn't like f1 or anything. but we missed the first 2 races, 150 and 250cc nyer race. sedey ok!

this year, the tickets were from The Mr's father (like always.hahaha tima kacih uncle!), but we can't get the grandstand, semua sebab orang sangat ramai. we got the K1 area. last year they even closed the K1 area and everyone was upgraded to grandstand. so tadi memang packed gila. A1 race pon tak se-pack tu dulu.

rossi was awesome! i loike! but he got 3rd place. ok la kan, dia start belas2 kot tadi. so he won the championship. yes, he needed to get at least 4th place in the race to win the championship. mungkin sebab tu tadi ramai sangat orang datang tengok.

then we went pusing2 around the pameran. mind u, the grid girls and also the girls yang diri2 and posing2 kat motor tu (ape orang panggil diorang eh? please, sape tau bagitau i. ke mereka tu pon grid girls??) were less attractive than last years' and the last two years'.hahaha boroi ok. ada pimples semua. saya pon musykil. tapi makin seksi. yummy.hahahaha. then ramai la laki2 tangkap gamba, pelok2 semua.

after the race, we went to seremban! ya, saya rindu Sara! dia dah besar ok, 3.6 kg. hebat minah tu. mungkin sebab banyak minum susu. stayed there for a while (to watch Enot dance actually.hahaha)

so that's weekend. tomorrow is a weekday. another day to spend in the labor room. please ramai bersalin esok. saya punye log book baru buat episiotomy satu jek, deliver baru 2. tapi branula insertion and blood taking dah penoh.yay!

tomorrow's to do list:
- write up! ( u have 4 cases to be submitted. sila jangan lazy2)
- drugs assignment
- read obs.

since my weight is dropping and dropping and continue to drop, i've got my license to eat-anything-i-want-at-anytime-i-want back! yeaahuuu!! hahaha i love that feeling.

and i want to get my tragus pierced! but i already have 8 piercings on my ears. how how??

Tipu

2009-10-24T08:09:00.002+08:00

I love it when they postponed their classes to Saturday morning. Because nothing beats the happiness of going to the hospital early in the morning on the weekend.

takpe2, lagi 5 bulan jek ok???

sama ke??

2009-10-24T01:08:00.005+08:00

hari tu pegi makan dekat cafe kat bawah asrama ni.
pastu kan, budak kafe tu dok sibuk2 tanye The Mr.
"bang, korang ni kembar eh??" merujuk kepada saya kat sebelah The Mr tu la.
The Mr dengan selamba mamba nyer tak jawab, senyum jek.
Nak buat propaganda la tu. Dia memang suka gossip2 ni semua.
Pastu sebab minah tu tak puas hati, dia tanye saya plak,
Saya jawab la tak, tapi dia tak percaya. sabo jek la.

sejak hari tu, setiap kali kitorang muncul kat kafe tu, dia tanya.
ape masalah dia pon saya tatau.

ni bukan la kedai pertama yang kitorang pegi, orang kedai tu tanya kami ni kembar ke, adik beradik ke. banyak dah. sampai kitorang selalu angguk jek, ngaku adik beradik.
Tapi geli kot kalau adik beradik bercinta.

pastu haritu gi raya rumah kawan2.
kawan2 pon kata kami ni kembar.
sama sangat ke?
saya tak rasa sama pon...

tengok ni, tak sama pon kannn???

yay! berjaya post dalam bahasa melayu. sila bangga!!

O_o

2009-10-23T19:11:00.002+08:00

I found out about something just now. it's shocking and very disturbing.

so i called wani zahari.

but it is still bothering me. haihhhhh!

why la? why?

Wuuuuuu...

2009-10-19T23:52:00.003+08:00

My 3 years and 1 month old lappy decided to quit on me. How dare u!!!

Sedih ok!!

Time to get a new one. Sape nak sponsor??? saya terima dengan tangan terbuka

2009-10-19T14:26:00.002+08:00

just got back from my first day in O&G rotation. must say, not bad at all. there's this one baby yang amat besar, berat 4.3 kg, sangat besar ok, saya kagum tahap cipan kat situ tadi.

then ada this one pregnancy, baru 22 weeks, but dah kena deliver, tatau ngape. sangat kesian.

kami takbleh conduct delivery kat situ, how la to fill in the log book??

disebabkan saya terasa amat bodoh masa exam haritu, saya nak study la sem ni. sila beri semangat ok?

tapi sekarang kena mamdi dulu. O&G busuk!

The Mr tgh kena silent treatment. biarkan dia! sape suro jahat sgt!

Babies

2009-10-18T21:53:00.004+08:00

Apart from biting and drooling, they also appear to puke.

Yes, Sara puked on me. Not once, but 5 times.

Thank You, Niece!

Esok start O&G. tak suka!!!!

yeaahhhuuuuu!

2009-10-15T22:02:00.002+08:00

haha exam's over baby! well, for the next 6 weeks that is. yes people, we have exam every 6 weeks. that would've explained why we had 13 exams in 24 months. sudah immune juga.

the exam was hard. like always.hehe but lets not worry about the result until it's out, okeyh??

i got cranial nerve palsy and tricuspid regurgitation for my short cases. apa lagi, memang sadih la suasana dalam exam tu. i tot i was the only one yang rasa syahdu camtu, turned out semua pon macam pressure pas exam.haha medicine rotation is not that easy ok. btw chupa, abang K tadi takde ok. dia tak jadik examiner.hahaha

went to the saloon after the exam. treat my body the much needed pampering. sangat indah. heh

next rotation is the one that i hate the most! yes, it's obstetric and gynae. buku pon semua dah hilang, so need to get new books! malas! and the classes are alll in sg. buloh. have to wake up early!! takpe2, tahun ni dah pandai sikit, kitorang buat carpool. so boleh la tido time orang drive,hehe

ok lah! nak gi tgk GG,GA,heroes,house,desperate housewives dan how i met your mother.banyak hutang nih.

esok balik jumpa sara!! yay!!!

Meet Alya

2009-10-12T13:03:00.002+08:00

Nur Alya

what can i say. it's a ~~productive~~ happy month for the family.

sorry bout the pic, was taken using the fon. hehe

T_T

2009-10-09T02:51:00.003+08:00

i cant seem to remember anything i read. sure die la weh!

homesick. so esok nak balik seremban.

2009-10-08T01:29:00.002+08:00

Celcom is so bodo. why? dia charged bill tepon saya sampai ratus2. saya tak guna ok fon saya tu. tipu besar celcom ni. pastu broadband dia selalu buat taik! hish! abes muktamad terbaik la konon??bodo! marah ok!

pastu saya mungkin kena banned exam sebab attendance tak cukup. esok nak gi beli mc. kawan2, jangan jadik macam saya ok? tapi bila kamu semua dah jadik doktor nanti, boleh la kamu menjual mc kepada saya. terima kasih.

owh, sekarang tengah gila nyanyi lagu ni!
I Wanna by All American Rejects

I never thought that I was so blind
I can finally see the truth
It’s me for you
Tonight you can’t imagine that I’m by your side
Cuz it’s never gonna be the truth
Too far for you

But can you hear me say?
Don’t throw me away
And there’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

Take everything that I know you’ll break
And I give my life away
So far for you
But can you hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

Tonight I’m weak
It’s just another day without you
That I can’t sleep
I gave the world away for you to
Hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

All I wanna do is touch you
I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but I all I have is time
Our loves the perfect crime

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

terpaksa letak clip tu sebab v.clip dia protected.heh

exam lagi

2009-10-05T15:30:00.001+08:00

saya ada banyak sangat benda kena study. medicine rotation should never be combined with surgery.

tapinye, saya takde mood nak blaja. bace buku pon macam tak ingat jek.

tolong!!!!

Meet Sara

2009-10-04T20:03:00.004+08:00

Hi, my name is Rania Arissya Qaisara. ~~gedik~~ comel kan nama saya? gambar ni masa saya umur 8 jam. comel tak? kamu boleh panggil saya sara. saya baru jek lahir semalam, 3 oktober 2009 pukul 4.04 pagi. saya slim masa lahir, berat 2.6 kg jek. jangan jeles ok?

ok, ni pon gambar saya masa umur 8 jam. nak buat mcm mana, aunty saya addicted dengan saya.

gambar ni saya muda sikit. baru 3 jam. yang tu mama saya. dia nak pujuk saya stop nangis. saya ni memang kuat nangis.

ok, list for tonight:
leukemia (semua jenis la tu)

dah, satu jek. malas la!

blaja!

2009-09-30T22:34:00.002+08:00

diabetes mellitus
diabetic emergency
respiratory examination
asthma
heart murmur (ni sumpah baca 3 juta kali pon tak ingat)
ca head pancreas
pancreatitis
brachial plexus injury

this is the list of things i wanna read tonight.

wish me luck!

2009-09-29T02:34:00.004+08:00

it's 2.35 am. i cant sleep. i have this backache that has been bothering me since this afternoon. i injured my back during my athletics *coughs* years way back in kys and the pain is located on that spot. haih. should i be worried? but it's really uncomfortable. it becomes more painful if i touch it or when lying down or when meniarap. hish! i have this muscle relaxant meds given by my doctor (because i'll get chest tightness and shoulder pain and neck muscle pain if i'm in major stress) but i dunno whether i should take it or not.

first day of school was surprisingly ok! well, minus the part that i wasn't able to answer simple questions like " what are the causes of finger clubbing". seriously, the lecturer caught me by surprise. i was day dreaming kot masa tu.

i fcuking hate my hair. period.

i have a tutorial on mangement of respiratory diseases tomorrow at 8. and i haven't read a single thing. asthma, copd, pneumothorax, abscess, pneumonia and more. of course i know a bit la, tapi tak mungkin cukup untuk jawab esok. spent the whole night watching gossip girls and grey's anatomy. gg was kinda boring. but chuck is so hot. theehehehe

my parents came today, with harriz of course. they brought me durians! yay! yummy! and kuah durian with pulut. extra yummy!

The Mr is currently under stress. he has his write up, PPD assignment, and seminar due this week. and of course, short notes and exam. i think he cannot function well under pressure. he is sleeping because he is too stressed out. will belanja him something to cheer him up tomorrow.

my back is killing me!

owh!

2009-09-27T23:04:00.003+08:00

i'm currently watching F1 at the moment. malas gila nak study!

classes start tomorrow. die weh, satu hape tak bace.

but i have only one class tomorrow. siot jek. baik dok umah lagi. but it's a bedside teaching. so cannot miss one.

exam's coming (again). dunno what to read. too many topics, too many distractions, too many open houses and SANGAT MALAS. still dalam mood cuti kot.

PRO 3 is like 6 months away. i should be freaking out now. tapi ntah, macam takde perasaan. hahaha

tetibe macam nak makan cupcakes. parah2.

sekarang kedai makan semua tutup lagi. mana nak carik makanan ni? masak? tanak la!

Still have a thing for guys wearing baju melayu.haha so encik b, sila pakai baju melayu ok? (ni tak mungkin terjadik)

random

2009-09-27T00:16:00.004+08:00

festive seasons make u fat. bladihel.

yes, all those lemang, ketupat, kuah kacang, rendang, ayam masak merah, and kuih muih went down straight to my ass, my humongous ass.

apart from that, i'm back in selayang! awal kan? ya, saya budak baik.

dan saya telah potong rambut! not as short as i wanted but ok la, tak rimas sangat dah.

nak upload gamba, but then this antique lappy cannot detect the memory card, nor the usb. haih... tapi akan cuba kejap lagi ok?

celcom amat terok lately. kaciwa saya.

today went to one of The Mr's Uncle's open house in cheras (kot,saya tak sure.hehe). The Mr doesnt know how to eat soto. apara!

then bila balik rumah, his father suddenly ask, "ape plan kamu?". mati mati kitorang ingat dia tanya plan malam tu. jawab la, "japgi nak balik selayang". rupenye dia dok tanye 'future' plan, bila nak tunang and kawin semua. tersedak saya di situ.

hahaha maka dengan selamba nya kami berdua jawab, "takde plan lagi". hehehe. tetapi beliau tidak berpuas hati, beliau tanya lagi, dan lagi. malang nya, jawapan yang sama gak beliau dapat. nanti la, bila saya ada plan nak kawin, saya bagitau ok???

ok, pictures time!

i think this is where he got the idea of asking us when we are getting married. he even ask me to hold the baby. no way, babies bite and they also drool. hehe

ini gamba masa menang pertandingan ali kafe. bak kata wawan.

us! muka lapar ok.

ni plak gamba kalah judi. sape kalah kena conteng muka guna lipstick. -_-"

rasa rasa kena buat plan dari sekarang ke???? hmmm....

2009-09-24T06:30:00.005+08:00

ok! i'm back after a month. hihihi at least i'm back la kan, bukan seperti ada SORANG tu. hehehe

so what's going on? nothing much. currently at home, raya holiday. amat best.

now i'm doing my medicine rotation. my supervisor is the dean, so kalau takbleh baca ECG gak pasni, confirm memang bangang tahap gaban aku ni.

both of my sisters are due this week. habes la, tambah lagi tentera kat rumah. tapi most probably both are girls, mungkin tambah cheerleader?

i'm thinking of cutting my hair short. rimas la! tapi The Mr kata jangan ngada2. so how?

naik cuti ni exam. mine are surgery and medicine. botak la kepala nak baca

We are 3! lama tak? sila kagum ok?

.......

2009-07-30T12:24:00.000+08:00

lelaki semua sama kan?

HAMPEH.

cuti!

2009-07-29T21:30:00.002+08:00

ok, it has been 4 days since uitm declared the holiday. we are not supposed to cuti at first, but then tatau ngape, kitorang involve jugak, so dapat cuti! yay!

well, not dapat cuti acctually, ni cuti mid-sem break sebenarnye. so we wont have anymore mid-sem break. baru 3 weeks kelas start, dah cuti. tak syok betul.

i'm getting fat. time to hit the gym? maybe.

fat fat fat. bontot besar.

no no, no gym, i'll try dieting first. semoga saya berjaya!

had diarrhea for 3 days haritu, so harini dapat makan, and saya makan macam orang kebulur ok. habes semua pon makan. macam mana nak diet ni??? start diet next week la kan?

kenapa saya rasa macam malas nak balik selayang?

clinic

2009-07-21T10:05:00.001+08:00

kejap lagi klinik

sekarang malas.

fizah pon malas

semua orang tengah tunggu jana makan

kejap lagi nak lunch mcd

owh, sungguh boring rotation surgery ini.

malam ni on call! adehhhh....

year 5

2009-07-10T07:57:00.000+08:00

IT'S VERY TIRING

New Sem

2009-07-05T00:18:00.002+08:00

i'm going back to selayang tomorrow. semester 9 ok. kagum tak??

i'm sad. kenapa group tukar??? saya dapat group yang amat rajin. saya takut!

tau tak, year 5 baru nak tukar group tu bodo?

saya start dengan surgery. inilah posting yang saya paling tak suke. tapi tak apalah!

takpe la, bak kata izzi, 'inilah kehidupan'. CHEIT!

ok ok, saya janji akan belajar bersungguh sungguh. saya nak jadik best student.

jadik kalau nampak saya study macam nak gila tu, jangan pelik ok? saya nak jadik skema semester ni.

9 bulan jek lagi! alaa sama lama macam orang mengandung. tak lama tu, kejap jek. pastu dah graduate ok?

Now now..

2009-06-30T22:49:00.003+08:00

.Forwhatitsworthistillloveu.

2009-06-30T04:58:00.001+08:00

new layout!
boring oredi.

removed the chatbox, so semak.

links will be updated later ok!

us?

2009-06-30T00:49:00.005+08:00

for if your guy is not there when u need him the most, what is the point of having him around anymore?

and if your guy keep giving reasons of why he cant be there for u, or at least support u emotionally, then what is the point of having a relationship?

it is not okay if he's there only for the good times.

the fact that YOU are not there when I NEED YOU, is not helping at all.

and i'm just a phone call away.

yes, u were there before. maybe now u've had enough. so i'm letting u off the hook.

saying i love u does not fix things.

silly faces and jokes do not make it any better.

a girl that suits u should be issue-free.

i'm a time bomb that can blow off anytime. i think i really need a break from everything.
i love u.

cuti!

2009-06-28T02:49:00.003+08:00

i'm at home! ada 1 week holiday and i'll be a final year student after that. scaryyyy~~~

i cant sleep! kepala serabut!

i need a holiday. i mean a real holiday, like a vacation camtu, to somewhere far from everything, and it's just me and my friends, or just with him (tapi ni sah2 la tak boleh. hahahaha)

TAPI, jpa tak masuk lagi!!!!!

ya, kadar sengkek dan pokai saya adalah yang paling teruk dalam masa 7 tahun ni. GILA AH!

ok ok, saya ada birthday wish list! hahaha this year i made a wish list! why? because saje gedik2. tapi i wont post it here. i'll just text it to The Mr. hahahaha

ok lah! nanti sya update lagi ok.

Kenapa?

2009-06-17T17:07:00.003+08:00

lalalala

saya sudah ting tong

kenape saya rasa dulu SPM lagi susah, tapi saya boleh jawab???

owh, audit tak siap lagi. sape nak tolong buatkan?

simple jek, pasal doctor guna CPG ke tak...

ada 400 subjek jek. simple kan?

ok lah, saya nak sambung buat audit ni.

nanti tak siap, tak boleh belajar.

kalau tak belajar, nanti tak boleh jawab exam. kan? kan? kan?

Mr. Audit, u suck!

2009-06-13T19:49:00.002+08:00

EXAM!!!
again!
sigh...

24th June 2009,
Medicine - MCQ,MEQ
Primary care - MCQ,MEQ
Short posting - MCQ

25th June 2009,
Primary care - OSCE

yes, it's 15 minutes gap for each paper (again)
haven't read a thing.

so saya nak gi blaja skarang ok?ok?

2009-06-01T21:44:00.002+08:00

http://mazidulakmal.blogspot.com/2009/05/kritikan-dipersoal.html

read.
it shows how ungrateful people are.
5 hengget pon nak berkira.
kelakar pon ada.
pikir la sikit pasal workload semua.
jangan compare private dengan kerajaan.
jangan amik complaints from patients jek.
kesian the docs and nurses and the MAs ok.

sometimes, orang memang susah nak paham.

study?

2009-06-01T13:14:00.002+08:00

selamat hari isnin!!hehe

kenape saya gumbira? sebab saya dekat rumah! saya tiada kelas selama seminggu.
TAPI, saya ada attendance. paham tak? kelas takde, tapi attendance ada. kira kalau saya tak pergi klinik kesihatan, saya takde attendance la. so kalau tak cukup attendance, saya tak boleh masuk exam la. hehe

so petang karang saya nak balik selayang. sangat malas nak drive.

hari sabtu haritu saya drop The Mr kat umah dia. so semalam dia takde transport nak balik. pastu mak ayah dia hantar balik selayang sebab mak ayah dia nak tgk asrama baru macam mana. saya panggil dia anak emak. dia marah. tapi betul la kan dia tu anak emak??(fareena, back me up here)hahaha

exam lagi sebulan! bukan bukan, lagi 20 hari. sangat takut.

kali ni punye exam:
cardiology
respiratory
neurology
endocrine
dermatology
infectious disease
psychiatry
forensic medicine
ophthalmology
ENT
primary care medicine

hahaha list sangat panjang. macam subjek SPM pulak saya rasa.

ok lah, start esok, saya nak pulun macam orang gila.

2009-05-31T14:01:00.002+08:00

kenapa nak jadik doktor kena belajar lama lama?
saya boring lah!
ada tak course medic yang 3 tahun jek??
saya nak apply.
Eh, tapi tahun depan InsyaAllah abes.
kensel la nak apply.

owh, The Mr dah tukar hobi.
Dia tak main heli dah.
Dia main kapal terbang pulak.
Kesian... cita cita nak jadik pilot tak kesampaian.
Terpaksa bawak kapal terbang mainan jek.

semalam saya pergi beli kan laptop untuk anak sedara.
umur dia baru 5 tahun.
melampau.

JPA bila nak masuk?
saya dah pokai.
mungkin harus carik ayah gula.
hahahaha

ok, saya merapu.
kenapa ya?

saya bosan lah!

Old Friend

2009-05-21T11:48:00.003+08:00

i have a friend. or he used to be my friend.
he was the kind of person who cried on his birthday, thinking that he is a useless guy.
and he'll call we from midnite till dawn just to talk about his life and his problems.
yes, he was weak, but as his friend, i believe that he is a great guy.
he'll also call me when i'm down and he'll cheer me up.
what we did was just talk.

till one fine day, suddenly he decided to hate me. maybe.
so he stopped calling and he stopped talking to me.
i don't know why.

last i heard was he is currently in LSE.
and last we met was in 2006.

i miss him.

just saw his pic in some of my other friends' fb. glad that he's now happy and doing great

kepada kamu

2009-05-19T15:28:00.003+08:00

kepada kamu, ya kamu. saya tahu kamu tahu saya maksudkan kamu.dan saya tahu kamu membaca blog saya.

terima kasih di atas semua reminder (sms, ym, email) untuk bukak facebook dan friendster kamu, untuk melihat gambar-gambar kamu.
terima kasih juga kerana ingatkan saya untuk bukak friendster si dia yang ada gambar kamu.
dan terima kasih juga kerana suruh komen di atas "relationship status" kamu itu ya?

bukan saya tak pernah jumpa si dia, kenapa mesti kecoh dekat saya? jangan risau, saya tak mahu kekasih hati kamu itu. tidak perlu lah kamu nak menunjuk kebahagiaan kamu kepada saya. tiada faedah nya.

sekarang sila stop buat benda-benda bodoh itu.
ya, saya tahu kamu excited, kamu ada teman lelaki baru, tetapi tidak perlu begitu, bukan?
rimas tahu.

jangan jadik pathetic sangat ok??

quick updates!

2009-05-17T12:15:00.004+08:00

it has been ages since my last update. y eh? no mood la

so these are the update:

i'm currently doing primary care posting. which is bloody hard. why? because the patient can be a dick sometimes. and yes, it was my group that some television company recorded and showed as 'doctors tak buat keje'. bodoh kan? they were waiting for the nurse to show them around the klinik kesihatan ok? get your fact straight la. sengal.

owh, i was in sg buloh when the kid with H1N1 tu masuk hospital. but i stayed away. because i was having a fever. and so i'm immunsuppressed at the moment, so i stay the hell away from that kid. haha

talikng about fever. i'm still having the fever. maybe because banyak sangat jumpa patient yang demam, terjangkit. dah dekat seminggu, still tak baik2. mungkin kena makan ubat?

berat saya dah naik. it's more than 53kg. and i can only fit into ONE pair of jeans. how sad is that? and i dont have any money to buy new ones. JPA tak masuk lagi!

ok la, my nephew wanna use my lappy so that he can watch Oggy and the Croacoches(is this how u spell lipas????hahahah)

till then, bye!

2009-05-01T16:00:00.001+08:00

saya edit blog saya

tiba tiba sekarang emoticon semua ada border
dah try nak buang, tapi gagal.

bodoh!

rubbish

2009-04-30T23:36:00.004+08:00

hellooooo.....

i'm having a severe headache right now. panas siang tadi agaknye, plus all the driving, kepenatan ok!

went out with The Mr sekejap tadi. lama tak jumpa beliau (padahal baru 3 hari. mengada ngada sungguh). haha. went to his house. the new one. and yes fareena, the house is BIG and BEAUTIFUL.hehehe

holidays ending real soon. haih... then it's the final rotation. pastu dah naik year 5. TANAKKK!!!

next monday start new rotation, primary care. gonna be at the klinik kesihatan for the whole 2 months! gila kan?

ok, post ini sangat rubbish. tapi suke hati saya la kan?

saya sakit kepala plus boring.

things

2009-04-27T18:26:00.002+08:00

the thing with me is that i cant really show how i feel, be it to my so-called friends (of which i'm very sure i have none at the moment) or family or to him. i'm smiling and crying at the same time.

things are very hard for me at the moment. i'm in deep shit. like really really deep shit.

and i dont know how to handle this.

really. i dont have the slightest idea on how to solve this mess.

worse, i've already reached my limit. too much is going on. too much to swallow.

tears and wet cheeks are my company. everynight.

they are unusual to me before.

am i getting weaker, or the things are getting harder? so much harder?

i just want to lie here and not thinking of it. but i cant.

2009-04-26T19:28:00.000+08:00

busy busy

saya amat benci ini

urgh

2009-03-23T09:29:00.003+08:00

sydah lama tidak online
mengapa ya?
oh, kerana saya sudah berpindah dan RUMAH BARU TAK ADA INTERNET!!!!!!!
hape la uitm ni
huhu
tapi takpe, they've promised that bulan 8 nanti internet ada (saya kurang yakin dengan ini)

Sekarang posting forensik
dah dua kali tengok mayat berulat
sangat ngeri
tapi best gak. haha

to nj, happy super belated birthday! haha baru pegang komputer, u tak bleh marah i wish lambat ok? i love u!hehe

ok, sekarang kelas, nanti bila saya jumpa komputer yang berinternet, saya update lagi ok?

sedih!

2009-03-07T18:16:00.003+08:00

OMG! i did something really terrible today. And i'm so sad..

you see, when i pack, i tend to throw away things. like today, i threw away my heater, notes, and many other things. and i managed to packed everything is less than one hour. when i moved all the stuff to the new apartment, i felt something was wrong.but i dont know what it was.

so i continued unpacking my stuff. then i was looking for this particular thing that was given to me by The Mr. for my birthday. it was a purse, with some money in it. i dont know how much but i think it was more than 50 bucks. but i wasnt thinking about the money. i want the purse! i was looking for it like crazy, then it hits me. I THREW THE PURSE AWAY! omg! i thought that the plastic bag was empty, but it wasnt. my favorite purse was in there. sob...sob..sob... sori b, tak sengaje tau.

b, nak purse lagi bleh? pleassseeee????

2009-03-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

TIRED! hehe just moved a whole load of my stuff to the new apartment. well, i must say that i'm only, errr, 40% moved? haha still have most of my stuff here at the old apartment. haish. too lazy to pack all my clothes, so i'm going to angkut them macam tu jek. with the hangers. haha. luckily izzi pinjam his father's car(yang juga dikenali sebagai lori oleh budak2 disini). so angkuting all the stuff is not a problem.

all the books and bookshelves have been moved. so my room is currently book-free. which is something rare. so i bought few comics so that there are at least some 'books' with me. hehe

tomorrow is going to be the 'hari berpindah besar-besaran'. a lorry will come and angkut all our stuff. well, not all, but most la. the fridge and also the washing machine, my housemates' books/bookshelves, baju2 semua la.. i dont think that i;ll menumpang my stuff kat that lorry. too tired to pack anything dah. huhu if la kantoi bawak washing machine, musnah la. but what to do, girls must have soft hands kan? so no berus-memberus baju ok. haha.

sekarang nak rileks tgk movies! yay!

haha is this the real me?

2009-03-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

tagged by arifah ahseng.haha

1. Open this website : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
2. Take the Personality Quiz
3. Copy Paste the result to Facebook (or in my case, here - haha!)
4. Tag your friends including me :)

so the results are:

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

annnndddd i'm tagging no one this time ;)

Pictures

2009-03-04T20:13:00.007+08:00

These were taken last saturday. went out with the girls to sunway. jerit macam mak gaban masa dalam rumah hantu tu. scary ok! tapi best. mari lah pergi beramai ramai.hehe. read the story kat blog chupa ok. malas la.hihihihi

gamba dinner nanti la yek?

Things

2009-03-04T07:01:00.003+08:00

Psychiatry is super tiring. Class ends at 5, will be home by 5.15, and will be sleeping until 11 pm.
Why? because clerking a patient will take about 2 hours, AND U STILL DONT HAVE THE COMPLETE HISTORY. memang menguji kesabaran. nasib baik our classes are in Selayang. the previous groups have to wake up super early bacause theirs were at Hospital Kelang. and kesian la kat patients tu semua. Ingat yek rakan2, jangan study sampai saket otak (oops, mental). Especially yang buat medicine and law.

kelas hari ni full! but i havent read a thing about psychiatry. Busy moving all my stuff to the other apartment. sesape nak tolong amatlah dialu-alukan. hehe

BOTH MY SISTERS ARE PREGNANT! OMG. musim orang pregnant kah?

OK lah! dah lambat. saya mahu pergi mandi dan bersiap-siap ke kelas

Tapi semalam hujan, pagi ni shejuk! camner nak mandi???urgh!

2009-02-27T13:53:00.002+08:00

Hellloooo people. hehe

Exam mode is Over! yay!!!
even though i did very badly during the exam, i'm still happy that its over!
the exam was on wednesday morning. usually, we'll have no classes until the next posting. but since i'm doing medicine rotation, we have classes until friday.
I'm currently studying dermato. IT IS VERY HARD!
i totally disagree to people who say that dermato is simple and easy and dermatologists are the useless doctors. haha so not true ok. its like tougher than neurology. trust me.

and today is the last day for my medicine rotation. yay!! happy happy ( i do believe some people in my group esp. cik arifah is not happy due to some reasons.hahahahaha). next is short posting!! Short posting consists of Psychiatry, Opthalmology, ENT and Forensic medicine. i'm excited, but a bit scared/nervous for the forensic since my friends have told me so scary geli2 nyer stuff they saw.haha

We'll be moving out to our new homes soon! yay!

p/s still malas nak upload gamba. nanti la yek?hehe

2009-02-24T15:12:00.001+08:00

Semalan dinner

Gamba nanti upload ok?

Tengah takut ni. Haish!

Help ANyone?

2009-02-21T15:55:00.002+08:00

I find in VERRRRRYYYYYYY HAAAARRRRRRDDDDDD to concentrate!

Never before i have to read a sentence more than 4 times to make sure it sticks to my brain. Now, even 10 kali pon tak ingat!

I NEED HELP!

hiv? kusta? hehehe

2009-02-19T00:17:00.004+08:00

Hellooo ppl!

i skipped all my classes today. haha i was too tired and lazy to drive to sg.buloh.

currently, it's infectious disease week, and sg.buloh hospital has an infectious disease unit/ward. that is why we need to go there. and it is near to pusat kusta kebangsaan.

in the wards there, mostly are RVD patients (retroviral disease). HIV is an example. it is kinda sad seeing them there. most of them have no visitors, be it their family members of friends. they are all alone there. well, most of my friends said that they deserve it, because, it is said that hiv is a disease to the 'bad' people. whatever that means. if it is so, then can u explain why the faithful housewives get the disease from their stupid husbands who has been sleeping around? what did they do wrong to be considered as 'bad' people? being faithful? patients there felt like they are being isolated from the world, being punished for whatever mistakes they have done. well, the public cannot be blamed for isolating them. it is the stigma that holds them to be a friend to these patients.

first case of hiv infection in Malaysia was reported in 1986. so the disease is new. and the public has little knowledge about it. they think that the disease can be transmitted with close contact to the patient. and this is not true. for them, by avoiding these patients, they are actually avoiding the disease. like, if i dont talk to u, i wont get the disease.

Hiv can only spread via 4 means, the blood and blood products, the semen and vaginal discharge, verical transmission (thats mom to babies, from giving birth and breast milk) and sharing needles (intravenous drug abuser). so in order for u to get the disease from a patient is to have sex with them, or poke them with a needle and then poke yourself with the same needle (without wiping the blood first) or transfused their blood to yourself. and i dont think u are going to do any one of the above. see? it is impossible to get the disease just by talking to them, showing them that u care. and no, their saliva yang tempias2 masa berborak tu cannot infect u with the disease. the viruses are heat-sensitive, and they'll die if they are exposed to heat. they even die if they get outside of the body.

ok la, enough of the hiv oredi. so tomorrow i'm going to pusat kusta. semoga jalan tidak jem ya.

i'm off to la la land now. but i'm planning to get up early, so that i can finish my neurology, and read a little about leprosy. it is a shame walking into the pusat kusta without knowing what kusta is all about.

owh, to that person, thank u so much!!

2009-02-17T21:00:00.003+08:00

EXAM MODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm soooo in trouble!
valvular heart disease tak baca lagi, murmur, HIV, ENDOCRINE AND NEUROLOGY, respiratory, etc etc etc etc.........

well, looking on the bright side. since daddy knows that exam mode=stress=shopping+lots of eating, he gave me extra money! yeayyyyy!!!!! told me to get new phone and contact lenses. But i'm thinking of buying a new camera.

Now, with all the money he gave, I NEED TO PASS THIS EXAM!! (rasuah anak suroh blaja. ish ish ish....)
So study mode is ON baby!

2009-02-14T21:40:00.003+08:00

Hellloooo ppl!!!
hahaha HAPPY VALENTINES DAYYY!!!! tho i really think that its nothing. bwahaha.

so, todays velentines day. mesti ramai yang gi dating n berjimba sakan nih. to those single laydiesss out there, no worries okies, nothing is special about today. it shall pass by just like any other day. dont be a fuss by saying that u dont have a date ke, boring dok rumah ke, hape ke. really, ITS NOTHING!!!

this is my 3rd valentine with The Mr (kagum tak???hahahahaha). and guess what? we've never celebrate valentines before. not a big fan. but i'm sure, some new couples out there must be really excited about valentines kan? (ehem2, hope orang tu ada terasa sikit.hahahaha)

I woke up really early today. wahaha no, not to celebrate the vday, but to go to IPR!! yup, saturday is no longer a holiday. woke up at around 5.30. siap2 and went down to the car. since its saturday and theres no driver to come and send us to IPR, we have to drive ourselves la. I was damn sleepy ok!! nasib baik tak tertido time drive tadi. so we reached IPR at abour 7.10 am. The class was at 7.30. so no rush there. after the bedside teaching habes, we were supposed to have seminar and case presentation. but since the classroom cant be opened, the class was canceled. haha cis, buang masa aku jek. and i reached home at about 9 am. because i was damn sleepy, i slept from 10 am, till 7 pm. hahaha.

i'm still sleepy tho, maybe sebab dah terover tido.

and the exam is on 25th February ok! i've annual dinner in the 23rd, and a doctor's appointment on the 24th. looks like i wont be studying that much.

ok, i really realllyyy reaaaalllllyyyyy should be freaking out right now. i mean, its medicine posting! the hardest of all. this time it is even kejam, we have cardiology, respiratory, infectious disease, dermatology, endocrine and neurology. haha. and short cases as the exam. i told u earlier in my previous entry, short cases are not my forte! if i get cases like cvs or respi, tu boleh la lagi. if dapat cns macam mana?? the examiner is going to say something like, please do cns examination. hahah time tu startla berpeluh. trust me, i've been there before. i got cns case during my 3rd year end of posting examination. cerebral lupus. hahaha. please, dont give me dermato jugak. i mean, u are supposed to give the diagnosis based on the skin lesions??? ayoyoyo...

owh, i got a perfume for The Mr. its the one he has been looking for. apentah nama dia. semoga The Mr. kurang busuk.haha

ok! nak blaja, bye!

2009-02-13T03:40:00.002+08:00

its 3.41 in the morning. kenape saya tak tido lagi? kerana saya telah tido dari jam 2 petang sehingga 11 malam tadi. haha. saya bangun pon semata mata nak siapkan write up. owh, kes kali ini susah. otak saya jammed diabuatnya.

baik lah, hari ini saya mahu bercerita dalam bahasa melayu.

saya rasa, saya ada memberitahu anda semua bahawa saya tidak suka ward rounds (maaf, saya tidak tahu apa ward rounds dalam bahasa melayu. pusingan ward kah?). tetapi semalam saya telah mengikuti ward rounds sehingga habis. kenapa ya? kerana saya hendak melihat bagaimana para doktor menerangkan kepada pesakit mengenai masalah kesihatan mereka. tepat jangkaan saya, para doktor di sana masih lagi kurang arif untuk menerangkan kepada pasakit mereka dalam bahasa yang medah difahami. yang lebih memeranjatkan adalah, seorang pakar perunding (yang megetuai ward round semalam) juga tidak boleh berkomunikasi dengan baik.

contoh:

Pakar: Mr,not only that we are suspecting that u might be having cancer, u also have underlying lung disease such as COPD
Pesakit: ???? (muka confuse habes)
Pakar: COPD, u know COPD??? Chronic Obstructive Lung Disease. (and he stopped there, thinking that the patient has understood what COPD is)
We need to do a biopsy. because u have COPD, u will most probably get pneumothorax as a complication of the procedure
Pesakit: Then why u want to do the procedure? why do u want me to get pneumothorax? what is pnuemothorax?
Pakar: Pneumothorax. u know what is pneumothorax? it is air inside the lungs (apekah? salah ni yek kawan2) (and he did not explain why it is important to do the biopsy)
Pesakit: ok. then why u want me to get pneumothorax?
Pakar: (dah start naik suara) no no, its not like that. u only have a chance of getting pneumothorax. its not like u WILL get pbeumothorax. just a chance.
Pasakit: ok
Pakar: (just only when the patient dah calm down semua, dah nak bagi consent for biopsy, he started again) the risk is veery high u know. u will get pneumotorax.(dia putar cakap dah)

and the conversation continued with more shouting and more medical jargon. kesian patient tu. last2 dia tatau ape2 pon. and he decided to go to a private hospital after that. haha. owh, the conversation was in english because the patient is an Italian. but married to a malaysian. mesti dia dok kutuk medical servis kat malaysia pasni.huhuhu

macam tak berjaya jek nak bercerita dalam bahasa melayu.

ok la, nak tido, ngantok juga

bye!

:About RandomThings????:

2009-02-10T22:26:00.005+08:00

this thing was supposed to be a fb thingy, but since this blog has been abandoned for a while (due to the writer's stress and berlagak busy mode), why dont i just write it here. hehe plus, fb sucks (ok2, tak suck, nanti nj marah. fb kurang baik,haha)

25 random things about me!

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

1. I hate veggies. Like really hate them. Dont ask me why, because i dont know why.haha

2. I am really really bad in keeping in touch with people. All the while it has been them keeping in touch with me. Bad, i know.

3. I miss my kakak and adiks back in kys. They have changed, so it really doesn't matter anymore.

4. Regarding #3, i can easily get rid of people from my life. Parasites cant stay in my life.

5. I was once labeled as mata duitan (skarang pon kot) hahahaha. I may act like one, but definitely not one. get it? Menimbulkan spekulasi dan kontroversi adalah sangat best. haha. The Mr's friends once told him that i am only after his money and i only go out with him because he has a car. CEH!!!!
(The Mr sengkek ok. sama macam saya. kalau dia pokai, saya jadik sugarmummy beliau. and bila saya pokai, beliau jadik sugardaddy saya. haha. if dua2 pokai, kna la mintak bantuan ayahanda tercinta)

6. I am prone to sesat. Just today i lost my way to one of the wards in the IPR, and IPR is even smaller than any sekolah menengah. I dont know why. Once, fareena and her father had to come as pasukan penyelamat, because i got lost on the way to boyfie's house. Bad, i know.

7. I can play games 24 hours straight. But that gift is not applied to studying.

8. I can only concentrate and remember everything being taught by the doctors for the first 30 minutes of the day. The rest is just like masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri.

9. I hate ward rounds. The longest i can tolerate is one hour. After that, I'll be sitting in the bilik rehat. I dont really think it is useful. Unless if u are doing rounds with the dean. Then only it is useful, and scary. haha

10. If people ask me about the 'half full half empty glass' thingy, I really cant answer that. Because what I saw is just a glass of water.

11. I used to have penyakit ketagih study. haha like obsessive compulsive tu, tapi the studying version. I must study everyday, went to the library like everyday. But now, I am cured. hahaha

12. I am considering to take law after i graduate from this miserable medicine program. hahaha

13. I used to play flute and piano. But now, i cant even read the taugeh on the sheet anymore.

14. I love shopping. I believe it is a genetic disorder. If u have chromosome XX, then u are prone to be a shopaholic.

15. I have never been in a relationship for more than 8 months. haha ok, except the current one, which is a surprise, because we have NOTHING in common.

16. I hate travelling. Or a packed and short holiday. If i'm going somewhere, it better be a quality visit, rather than being there for the sake of u can tell people u have been there. That would have explained why my holidays have always been more than a week in just ONE place. haha

17. Shopping and learning history are the two reasons why I go for holidays. And i think that holidays will not make your stress go away. U know u cant make problems go by themselves kan?

18. I am not the kalut type. Except when the exam is around the corner. Then u can see the kalut side of me.

19. I choose my shoes like it is a life changing decision. That is why The Mr is phobia with these 5 words- "B, nak beli kasut laaaaaa....."

20. I got offers to models before. And i turned them down. hahaha kunun2 nak jadik doktor punya pasal.

21. I am afraid of butterflies. Yes, they are beautiful, but scary ok!

22. I am a hypochondriac. That is why taking medicine is a mistake.

23. I am allergic to penicillin. And also lactose intolerance.

24. My english was very bad. I dont even know that yellow is kuning like until i was in standard 5. hahaha. ya itu lah akibat bersekolah di pendalaman sarawak yang kekurangan cikgu english ok!

25. In terms of relationships, i used to think that a lady should be treated as a princess. I mean ALWAYS be treated as a princess. But now, in reality, i've accepted that love is something realistic. I dont need candles or flowers to know he's the one (but occasional gifts would be nice.hahaha).

saya mahu tag:
Fareena (walaupon anda tak suka, ini adalah kerahan tenaga.hahahaha =p)
Arifah jamaluddin (busy kan? takpe, lepas exam ok)
Fatinn Rahman ( saye tatau dah ada orang tag awak ke tak fatin.hihihi)

penat! bye!

2009-02-05T00:31:00.002+08:00

Hello ppl! haha been busy lately. With school and stuff. School was surprisingly ok and fun for the past few days. I was expecting that the sessions with IPR would be something boring and tiring. But it wasn't boring at all, just the tiring part is very true. haha

well, the class at IPR started last Tuesday because Monday was a public holiday. Me, being a not-so-morning person, was dragged out of my very comfortable bed as early as 6 am that day because i have to get my lazy bum on the van at 6.40 in the morning. i was kinda panicked because i haven't ironed my baju kurung yet, and my nails were very long (yeah, cardio posting, no percussion=no nailclippers.hahaha). so i took a super fast mandi kambing shower and ironed my baju kurung and took my breakfast (well, not really a breakfast, just a glass of weight gain.haha) and went down to the car to take the nail clipper.

when i was waiting for the lift, there were this adik-adik primary school students who were carrying their extra big bags, and were waiting for the lift with me as well. that was at 6.30 man, imagine how early those kids have to wake up everyday! i think that it is a nature that kids are more excited about school than we are (we is referring to the not so young students.haha). but i think i am not a fan of school since my younger days as i only went to school 3 times a week, at most. so it was like 3 days school and 4 days holiday back then. and when i was in kys, i used to pretend that i was sick and will go to the sick bay just to get out from the class, and used to seludup keluar from the kys with the help of the drivers,haha

so back to the story. i was wearing the lab coat when i went to get the nail clipper in the car. wearing a white labcoat in the morning and walk around the parking lot under the dimmed light was not something u should do. its scary for u and u scared the people around u as well. so the van came at 6.40 sharp. we reached the IPR at around 8 am when we were supposed to be there before 7.30 (ward rounds at 7.30 ok! macam sekolah rendah nyer kelas, start pukul 7.30 yek). so we met the pengarah IPR there. she was very nice, very eager to teach us, but sarcastic as well. i was put in the TB ward, so i see TB patients everyday now. haha scary kan?? tapi takpe, nak blaja nyer pasal. But the IPR is not like selayang hospital or anything. they dont have computers. all the notes are hand-written by the doctors so understanding the notes charted by the doctors would be something like mission impossible. so we need to clerk the patients ourselves.haha padan muka. and the history given to us from the patients was not like typical textbook case of TB. from the history, rarely u could diagnosed the patient with TB as the patients there are all serious cases with atypical presentation. so one would have to dig deep to say that it is TB. and all of them are not just pulmonary TB, u have the lymph nodes TB la, bone TB la, skin la, and none of them presented with sign or symptoms of TB. if they are not in the TB wards, i would not say that they are having TB (and probably failed the exam because misdiagnosed the patient.haha). there is this one young lady who presented with right arm swelling and the hospital took 3 years to diagnose her of having TB of the humerus.

So basically what we do there everyday: we arrived, joined the ward rounds, then went for breakfast (if sempat), then go to the ward or the procedure rooms or to the clinics (depending on whats on the list that day), then off to the wards to clerk patients. then lunch and then to surau there. then we'll have seminar and bedside teaching until 5 pm (sometimes the bedside start at 5 pm.haha kejam). so when i got back home, i was really tired and i will sleep from 6 pm to 11 pm. then i'll wake up, eat dinner and sleep again.haha penat seh, takde nafsu nak blaja.hahaha

and that is how my life is going to be for this 2 weeks rotation in IPR.

and i have classes on saturday. ya, IPR pon kejam macam uitm.haha

list of things to read:
cardiovasular- ni sangat banyak untuk di list kan. so malas
respiratory- copd, asthma, tb, osd, carcinoma etc
endocrine- dm, thyroid, adrenal, pituitary etc
neurology- urgh, tatau, tak tgk list lagi
dermatology- ni pon sama macan neuro
infectious disease- ni pon sama macam dermato

i have 3 weeks to read those. ya, 3 minggu lagi akan exam (lagi) uitm memang suke buat exam nih.

till then, bye!

2009-02-02T02:44:00.003+08:00

facebook sucks! i spent the last 3 hours trying to set up an account for The Mr and failed miserably.
and it seems like i cant upload any photos to my account.
hish!

shopaholic???

2009-02-01T20:40:00.002+08:00

I went shopping (again) today. hahahah i like!
tapi duit dalam purse dah nyawa2 ikan. so mungkin kena control sikit.
minggu ni jek dah beli tops ngan shoes dengan banyak nyer.
tadi pon nyaris2 nak beli hush puppies nyer baju (tapi tak jadik sebab The Mr dah jeling2.hihihi)
tu tak kira bajet untuk comic books lagi tu (last month habes beratus kot beli komik.huhuhu haih...)
owh, dengan bajet weight gain jugak. weight gain dah mahal yek kawan2..
next month kna beli fundoscope. mahal tu. mingkin tanak beli.haha

esok hari wilayah. saya patut ada kelas dekat IPR (institut respiratori). tapi takde sebab KL cuti! yay!!!tapi MUNGKIN akan ke library untuk membaca buku. dah lama sungguh saya berjimba. masa untuk belajar.

ok, saya yang hepi ini mahu tido. bye!

:About RM 20 For A Movie???:

2009-02-01T12:56:00.000+08:00

KUALA LUMPUR: Malaysians will have to pay more to watch Hollywood films in the cinemas if a proposal by the Malaysian Film Producers Association is accepted by the government.

The association wants the ticket price for Hollywood movies to be hiked to protect local feature films.

Its president, Ahmad Puad Onah, said the higher ticket prices was among proposals the association would submit to the National Film Development Corporation soon.

"Our members agree that only by hiking the admission price of Hollywood movies will Malaysians go to watch local movies."

He said although the local film industry had been on an upward trend over the past two years, the current economic uncertainties had stunted growth.

"All six local films released during the school holidays have under-performed.

"One of the reasons cited for the poor performance is that they had to compete against Hollywood blockbusters."

The films -- Wayang, Selamat Pagi Cinta, Antoo Fighter, Los & Faun, Cicakman 2: Planet Hitam and Histeria -- had to compete against Hollywood big-budget movies such as The Day The Earth Stood Still, Bolt, Twilight and Madagascar 2.

Antoo Fighter and Cicakman 2: Planet Hitam, which had been expected to be a hit, failed to score with movie-goers, he said.

"We are sure that if ticket prices for local movies are reduced, more people will watch them."

Ahmad Puad said such a policy was in place in Indonesia.

"In Indonesia, the ticket prices for Hollywood movies are higher than Indonesian movies.

"It has helped the growth of the film industry."

He said the association would propose that ticket prices for Hollywood movies be increased to RM20. Now, ticket prices for all movies are between RM9 and RM12.

On why ticket prices for local movies should not be lowered instead, Ahmad Puad replied: "That will not be fair to our producers."

He said the move would give local films the edge when competing with Hollywood blockbusters.

"It is timely as some of today's locally-made movies are on par with foreign movies in terms of quality." (haha u wish)

In fact, it would encourage local producers to invest more in their movie production, he said.

Other recommendations to be submitted included better incentives for filmmakers and a revision of the compulsory screening scheme.

He said 35 local movies were expected to be released next year.

"But if we follow the current scheme, only 22 films will get shown."

Under the scheme, only two local films are allowed to be screened a month. Also, no local movie will be screened during the fasting month.

this is extracted from one of the newspapers. i've saved as draft for 2 weeks kot. terlupa nak upload.hohohoho

tapi.....apekah?????????????????????if the malay movies are good and worth watching, i'll surely watch them. like jangan pandang belakang. and i even went to see cicakman (the first one). but the movies nowadays are rubbish. they are trying to make our local movies look like the ones from indonesia la. which is a failure, and not good, and boring, and a waste to my money.BUT some of them are good and i dont mind paying extra money to watch them.

what i'm trying to say is that u can't blame others if u can't produce something as good as them. u should try to improve. come up with better ideas, better actors and actresses, better storyline, and please dont afraid to invest some money. movies with limited funds are never good. what u are trying to do right now is that get rid of the better ones so that u can look like the best among the worst (ouch, sounds just like the local politic scene.haha). it's like in a school, where your son is in the middle level (if not the worst) in his class, and u as the principal wants your son to be on the top, so what u did was to get the top students to be transferred, if not expelled, and try to limit the intake of new, smart and clever students, when what u should do is get your stupid son a tutor to guide him.

another thing, please improve on the graphic. the worst i've seen was on impak maksima, where the car exploded in the end. that was a pure stupid and cheap and no quality at all. i bet my friends back in kys could've done something much better. and the stories are getting mengarut and mengarut-er. come on, sifu and tongga? loss and faun??tittle pon dah cam omputih konon nyer. haih...

ok, penat taip. nak gi shopping. bye. haha

:About RESULTS!!!!!:

2009-01-30T16:44:00.002+08:00

RESULT DAH KELUAR!!!! hahahaha

i passed! yay!

well, not with flying colors i must say.hehe
but 3B's and one A+ is not that bad la kan?kan? hahahaha

The Mr got 3B's as well. but with one C. hehe saya jeles! dia tak study pon dapat 3B jugak! haha

TERIMA KASIH TUHAN!!

sem baru ni ntah ape la pulak gaye result yang dapat agaknye.huhuhuhuhu

stress kah???

2009-01-29T15:53:00.002+08:00

sudah seminggu saye tak gi kelas
saye balik seremban dan duduk kat rumah, ala2 cuti semester gitu
kakak kate saye ni stress
pada hari ini, saya decide nak balik selayang (bukan nak pon, tapi esok ada presentation. kena present. slide pon tak buat lagi)

kenape yek saya rasa tanak blaja sekarang???

:About Womens Words:

2009-01-20T22:10:00.004+08:00

(1) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men.
A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever : Is a woman's way of saying F-- YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it : Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

haha found this on the net (again). i've used these words before and the description given above is exactly what i meant.haha this is a guide for u guys out there, and just for laugh for the ladies, because u know it's true

:About Oh Cuti:

2009-01-19T19:35:00.002+08:00

We have 2 days holiday for Chinese New Year! yay!!

TAPI, saya ada KELAS DENGAN DEAN masa cuti itu...sighs...
there goes my cuti

:About Entahla.hehe:

2009-01-18T03:22:00.002+08:00

ok2. saya tipu! saya tak belajar pon malam ni!

skarang pukul 3.22 pagi, saya baru bangun and makan dinner (tomyam ayam!yummmyy!)
sebab dah kenyang, macam takde mood nak blaja (alasan) haha

tadi sebelom tido, dok main game.

urgh, tiket konsert jason mraz !!! saya nak!!! tapi tadi takde sape nak teman gi beli. syahdu!

ok2, list untuk hari ni:
read:
-cardiac axis (sebab dr.jeya suro. dahla dia mark saya! urgh!)
-STEMI
-Murmur (for God's sake, just finish reading this already Hidayah!!!)
Assignment:
-Seminar
-Write up

Wish me luck. I'm still not in the mood to study

tapi hari ni mereka ajak pergi jalan2 kat kaki genting. macam mana????

2009-01-17T16:12:00.002+08:00

Hello people.hehehe
i am currently stuck playing mr. logic's hidden riddles online. it's a game, where u need to solve riddles in order for u to advance. i suck.haha

i should start doing my seminar on acute myocardial infarction soon, but i have zero mood to start. need a jump start.hehe

current playlist:
Situasi-Bunkface
Love Story-Tylor Swift
The Man Who Cant Be Moved-The Script
Don't Forget-Demi Lovato
Just Dance-Lady GaGa
Merindukanmu-D'masiv
Our Song-Taylor Swift

Malam ni saya belajar!Janji!

:The One with The Stupid Issue:

2009-01-16T17:58:00.002+08:00

I hate it.
I hate people who called me in the middle of the night, while i was sleeping, just to tell me that they can' t sleep and scared and all stressed out because they have exam the next day. and telling me things that they are too tired and all burned out because they have 4 papers in a week. YOU SUCK! you know that? not that u don't have the questions (come on, your friends told me that the lecturers have already given u guys the topics to read and focus on), and u have 2 weeks of study leave!that give u like 3 weeks to prepare! wtf??? bukan la course yang ko amik tu susah sangat! dah la lelaki.mengada2 macam cipan!

welcome to my list of people-that-i-will-avoid-forever.

:About Boyfriend and Husband:

2009-01-15T20:16:00.003+08:00

I found this on the net. Just wanna share it with u guys. haha

UPGRADE FROM BOYFRIEND TO HUSBAND

Dear IT Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slowdown in the overall performance, particularly in the flower, gifts and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 un-installed many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, but installed undesirable programs such as Formula One 5.0, NBA 3.0 and World Cup 2.0.

And now Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and House Cleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What can I do?

Signed,
Desperate Housewife

Reply:

Dear Desperate Housewife,

First keep in mind:

Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system.

Try entering the command C:\ I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME and download Tears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0.

If all works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

But remember, overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Late Night Teh Tarik 6.1.

Late Night 6.1 is a very bad program that will create SnoringLoudly.wav files.

Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-Law 1.0 or reinstall another Boyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have a limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly.

You might consider additional software to improve memory and performance. I personally recommend Hot Tasty Food 3.0 and Tongkat Ali 6.9.

Good Luck,
IT Support

Somehow i think its true.hehe

:About Quick Update!:

2009-01-14T23:12:00.003+08:00

okkaaayyyyy, my life in medicine rotation wasn't really what i expected it to be. more leisure than study. hahaha surely i will have to work my ass like crazy during the exam time. haha

then again, the lecturer gave me the look this evening because i was unable to answer some questions about mitral stenosis. it was my fault tho. have not been reading books! but its ok i guess. there's always next time.hehe.

And during the physical examination, i got stuck. haha never happened before. i forgot to do so many things. forgot about the thrills and heaves and to ask the patient to lie on his left side and to lean forward and forgot to check for tapping apex and also to feel the carotid artery when ausculting. haha i did remember the last one, but i'm sure about the heart sound i heard, which is s1 and s2 and which is which. so i didn't do it. but again, being a student is all about showmanship. so kena minus marks. haha and today's mark for physical examination was the lowest i've ever get. but i still passed ok! hehe

oh result, bila mahu keluar????

i've watched gossip girl ep 15. chuck was so stupid. and jack too!

i should really start looking for my books and read them. and practice my examination skills!

:The One with Issues:

2009-01-11T00:04:00.002+08:00

I'm now in the 8th semester of my study. and in more or less than 15 months time, i'll be a doctor, InsyaAllah. Honestly, i've never imagined myself being a doctor.Never. When reunions come, i'll be telling my ex-schoolmates that i'm doing something else, be it mass com, or law, or accountancy, but never medic (but of course kantoi la in the end,sebab few of my friends are here in UiTM). I've no idea why. I've not been reading my books lately, and that has caused me to not be able to answer the questions asked by my lecturer. I hate that feeling.

What if i'm not meant to be a doctor?

:The One with Free Time:

2009-01-08T16:50:00.005+08:00

boredom strikes!haha

Is something bothering you?

-YES!!!!!!!!!!cepat la result kuar!!!! just got my result for surgery jek. i want the other 3 postings!!!

Do you like anyone at the moment?

-does myself count? i rock u know. haha

Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?

-why?are u telling me that i have pretty eyes?thanks!hehe

Who was the last person who text you?

-he who went to genting alone and is going to be slapped by me when i see him aka The Mr.

When's the last time you cried?

-Phew, lama dah. tak ingat laaaa....

Who do you make fun of the most?

-hmm hmm ntah la. no one in particular. i'm a good girl ok.haha

Do you dance in the car?

-yes!!! wanna dance with me?hehe

How did you get your last scar?

-owh, iron! terima kasih la iron. now i have a scar at my thigh! thigh ok! haish!

Whats your favorite season?

-season? malaysia only has panas and banjir jek ok! where got season2 nih???

What are you listening to?

-Emilia Hasni singing bunkface's situasi. Musnah lah, musnah impian...ooooo....haha

Do you know anyone who has messed up your life?

-Nope. my life is not a mess. owh, except when its exam week. so i think The Dean is probably someone who has messed up my life.haha

Wearing any jewelry?

-Nope. malas la.hehehe

Have you ever made anyone laugh when they were crying?

-Yes!haha. and they cried while laughing too! i'm such a talented clown. haha

Where were you last night?

-rumah akmal, eating the cacat-looking birthday cake of hers.haha

Have you had more than 3 boyfriends / girlfriends at the same time?

-3???no no no. 2 yes.hahahaha

Are you in a good mood right now?

- nope! Thanks to The Mr.huhu

Where are you currently?

-Rumah la.ruang tamu rumah.mane la lagi saya nak pergi??hehe

Do you miss someone?

-Nope.yes, thats including not missing you. dont ask me whether i miss u or not. i dont miss u!hehe

What made you sad today?

-The Mr. i'm sooo going to rejam him today.

What was your last phone conversation about?

-nak balik umah tak???dah abes kelas ni? awak nak naik ngan chupa ke ngan kita? nak gi selayang mall dulu ni. (me to akmal)

What were you doing at midnight last night?

-wathcing movies.haha medicine la sangat.

Do you believe that you can change for someone?
-tak. haha. i'll change if i want to. not for someone. ego kan saya?terima kasih kerana begitu jujur.

Who did you last talk in person?

-ain.

Do you like surprises?

-yes!!! nanti nak surprise ok!

Did you hug anyone today?

-nope. why?do you need one? hehe

Are you good at giving directions?

-sometimes.haha. sape nak sesat, sila jumpa saya ok!

Do you enjoy sleeping late?

-yes if i can wake up late the next day.

Do you smile at strangers?
-yes. jika mood saya bunga2 dan baik pada hari yang cerah itu.

The phone rings, what do you say?

-hoi.hehe

What time did you get up this morning?

-12 (if u consider 12 is still morning.) if u dont, then it was at 11.59

Are u afraid in falling in love?

-tak la. syok ape.hahahaha

What are you doing after this?

-Dunno.makan kot.

Which one of your cousins is closest in age?

-ain!haha

Last thing you fell off/over?

-urgh, tak ingat. but i did jatuh kan kek akmal yesterday without jatuhkan myself.hehe

Look to your left, what do you see?

-makanan!!!!yummy!

Does it matter if your bf/gf smokes?

-Nope. as long as he doesnt smoke in front of me/in the house/in the car.

Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly every thing about you?

-jeng3, i perahsia u!(baca dengan nada noks ok!)

Who was that last person you had a phone call longer than 7 minutes?

-Mohamad Izzi Zahari. it was longer than 10 minutes juga.hihi

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?

-not really that often.mulut takde insuran memang macam ni.haha

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?

-yes.hehe

Would you go back in time to change something?

-yes. i will not do medicine.thanks for asking.

Is it hard to left someone?

-nope. its your decision, why should it be that hard?

:The One with The Ice-Cream Cake:

2009-01-07T21:31:00.003+08:00

I did something really terrible today..
and i feel really bad. aduih. sorry guys.
wanna know what i did? i ACCIDENTALLY dropped akmal's birthday cake!!!

TWICE! and the cake ended up not looking like an ice-cream cake
I was driving very carefully so that my kimi raikonnen's skills will not cause any cacatness to the cake. but shit happens,i dropped it, while carrying it to akmal's house. ayoyoyo...

but the cake was still edible, and we ate it! nasib baik sedap.huhuhu

sorry guys. and happy birthday akmal!

:The One with New Posting:

2009-01-05T20:51:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum (cewah!) hahaha
Its obvious that i'm in a good mood kan?hihihi well, post exam mood memang macam ni ok. so abaikan saje. haha

my new rotation is...jeng3...haha MEDICINE!!!! and i got cardiology as the first posting! wahaha i'm so happy with that, but a bit takut because i'll be seeing the dean more often. huhu hari2 palpitation la camni jawabnye.

i should read my books now. but i just got back from dinner and i'm tired. so i think i'll read them tomorrow. promise!

i miss you.

2009, amazing year, hopefully

:The One with the Stupid Exam 2:

2009-01-01T18:18:00.004+08:00

Esok exam lagi!!!
ni extra takut! have both long and short cases!!!urgh, semoga tak dapat benda pelik2 dan tak payah buat per rectal examination!hehe tapi dapat BPH bagus gak, senang sket.huhu
saya dah biol!

owh, ni newest addiction. i like!!!

Ada tak sesape nak main gitar n nyanyi lagu tu kat saye???sila hubungi saya ok!hihihihi

owh, nanti nak tulis pasal new year, skarang bz. hehe